yesterday was an awful day full of death and sadness for my town. i'm not even being remotely melodramatic either. my 11 year old brother watched as one of his teachers collapsed in the middle of the hallway. he had a heart attack and died shortly after in the hospital. he was 36. a sophomore at my school died yesterday as well. he fell down a flight of concrete stairs. he was 16. i didnt know him personally but i saw him every day on the way to class. and 5 boys i know were arrested for trying to steal football tickets from the athletic director's office and sell them for cheaper or return them for refunds. 4 of them were suspended. 1 of them, who also was discovered bringing alcohol to school, was expelled and is awaiting a court hearing. this all happened to people i was connected to, and all on the same day. i feel guilty for some reason, even though i had nothing to do with any it. i didnt even know any of these people very well at all. it makes me cry. please pray for all of their families and friends, or if you don't pray, at least keep them in your thoughts. :'(
umm... super tired and semi-depressed right now.... tho thats mostly because im super tired. i havent been getting much sleep lately and my friends are starting to think that there's something wrong... hmmm reading the mortal instruments series I AM IN LOVE if you havent read them DO IT superrrr good :) so yah
i do trapeze and aerial dance at a studio in town, and we had a performance this weekend (yeah, i'm cool like that XD ) my group was (were? idk) corpse bridesmaids (it was halloween themed) and this show is totally sick. i mean mind-blowingly amazing. it's some crazyy stuff man and so i was getting on my trapeze (which btw was about 6 1/2 feet in the air) and start doin my thing, doing all these tricks and stuff and lookin all limp and dead like the punk-ass dead bridesmaid i am.... and i fall. flat. on. my. face. siriusly. no net, no harness, no mats. just a hardwood floor. it was crazyyyy but i was a corpse, right? so i stayed totally still and played dead like it was all part of the show and one of the other performers (while each group did their dance the other performers lingered around the edge of the stage, messing with the audience and stuff) came and touched my hand, and i looked up, and we were TOTALLY improvising man, so i was scared shitless, and she pretended to raise me up with her hand and i just staggered up and followed her to the side of the stage, sat down all creepy-like, and stared at a little girl until she almost started crying (the makeup was pretty intense) and NOBODY KNEW IT WAS AN ACCIDENT THEY ALL THOUGHT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN and all the other performers were really sweet about it and congratulated me on my good recovery and stuff and apparently it all looked like it was planned. so yeah. best/scariest mistake ever. oh, i'm totally fine by the way. haha
the perks of being a wallflower is one of my all-time favorite books ever, up there with harry potter, the percy jackson books, and stargirl by jerry spinelli. when i heard they were making a movie out of it, i was excited. when i heard logan lerman was going to play charlie, i was thrilled. when i heard emma watson was playing sam, i was speechless. when i heard about the rest of the cast, i was close to tears. it's so perfect. absloutely perfect. nina dobrev as candace? perfect. mae whitman as mary elizabeth? perfect. ezra miller as patrick? perfect. paul rudd as bill? fucking perfect. you have no idea how excited i am about this movie. almost as excited as i get about the premieres of harry potter movies. and that's saying a lot. so yeah. icantwait. ima go read this book again kbai